Please Remember!

I have Lupus.  Many people know that, but do they really know it?  Have you ever had to repeat something so many times that you would just rather stab yourself in the eye with a dirty needle then say it one more time?  I loathe repeating myself over and over again. 

I have Lupus.  I feel like I am constantly repeating that, and it is getting so very old. 

I do have Lupus and I don't want to say it anymore.  Do you know how annoying it is when I have to explain it over and over?  It's been 2 years, why are people constantly asking me why I am so tired?!?! 

Why are people always giving me annoyed looks when I can't just jump up like a spring and get going or when I can't seem to get involved or seem just blah?

Once again, I have Lupus, which drains every single ounce of energy I have (even if I have only been awake for an hour), provides me with many aches and pains, keeps me as white as a newborn baby's butt, it has gifted me the joints of an 80-year-old, provided me with nice rosy cheeks like Santa, and a horribly foggy mind, which keeps me from understanding things quickly or helps me to forget so many things. 

Unless you have to rest after having a shower...
you have no idea what fatigue is!

I have been diagnosed with Lupus for about 2 years, and I have yet to not have to explain myself to someone for being too tired, out of it, or achy.  I mean, REALLY!?! 

Maybe it's just me.  Maybe I pay way too much attention to people when they tell me important things happening to them.  Maybe I care way too much about what others say and what is going on in their lives. 

Please, I beg of you, read about the Spoon Theory, just so you will understand what I go through on a daily basis.  If you don't want to read it, please, I beg of you, don't ask me why I am so tired.

Want Some Cheese with that Whine?

Uh, NO!  Hows about some cheesecake with it instead?  Okay people, I have been "dieting" for about 2 months now and have actually gained weight.  What really makes me mad is that my sister has lost 20 pounds so far and, unfortunately, I have found half of that weight, and added them to my thighs, hips, and stomach.  How did I find them you ask?

I have absolutely

NO SELF CONTROL

over these wonderful concoctions!  

If there is candy in a mile radius, I will definitely find it and I will definitely eat the heck out of it.  I am beginning to think that working at home is a horrible idea.  My desk is in the kitchen, which is the best place for a fatty to be all day, right?  With all of those snack cakes, leftovers, cookies, and candy.  I just can't win.  God forbid someone else be able to enjoy the ooey gooey goodness of all of that junk food and empty calories.  It just tastes and feels so good while you are eating it, but then, when you are done, you feel like a cow that has just grazed all day in the back 9 cornfield after the harvest.  

I am just going to blame the weather, and I think all Hoosiers will agree that Indiana weather absolutely sucks!  It's all the weathers fault because I would totally be outside all day exercising if it was warm out...right...

COME ON SPRING, SPRING ALREADY!