Sunday, April 7, 2013

Please Remember!

I have Lupus.  Many people know that, but do they really know it?  Have you ever had to repeat something so many times that you would just rather stab yourself in the eye with a dirty needle then say it one more time?  I loathe repeating myself over and over again. 

I have Lupus.  I feel like I am constantly repeating that, and it is getting so very old. 

I do have Lupus and I don't want to say it anymore.  Do you know how annoying it is when I have to explain it over and over?  It's been 2 years, why are people constantly asking me why I am so tired?!?! 

Why are people always giving me annoyed looks when I can't just jump up like a spring and get going or when I can't seem to get involved or seem just blah?

Once again, I have Lupus, which drains every single ounce of energy I have (even if I have only been awake for an hour), provides me with many aches and pains, keeps me as white as a newborn baby's butt, it has gifted me the joints of an 80-year-old, provided me with nice rosy cheeks like Santa, and a horribly foggy mind, which keeps me from understanding things quickly or helps me to forget so many things. 
Unless you have to rest after having a shower...
you have no idea what fatigue is!

I have been diagnosed with Lupus for about 2 years, and I have yet to not have to explain myself to someone for being too tired, out of it, or achy.  I mean, REALLY!?! 

Maybe it's just me.  Maybe I pay way too much attention to people when they tell me important things happening to them.  Maybe I care way too much about what others say and what is going on in their lives. 

Please, I beg of you, read about the Spoon Theory, just so you will understand what I go through on a daily basis.  If you don't want to read it, please, I beg of you, don't ask me why I am so tired.

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