*sigh*

I swear I'm bipolar. One day I am up and happy and ready to just have a great time. Other days, I am down in the dumps ready to cry at the drop of a hat. The latter is the day I have had today. I don't know why. Maybe it's the fact that I haven't been out of the house, other than to drop the kids off at my mil's house, for a few days now. I need to find a reason to leave this house. Unfortunately, A's bball is over for the summer, so I don't have that to go to three days a week. I usually complain about going, but I have met some new people and actually made a new friend, at least I hope I did.  Maybe she just thinks I am weird and only talked to me because she was too scared to walk away. Hmmmm....I guess only time will tell LOL!

My headaches haven't stopped lately, in fact, they are moving down my neck and behind my eye, which feels just wonderful!!! I love working all day and then just lying around with a headache all night. I swear my boys probably think the only thing I can say is, "be quiet, mommy has a headache!"  Though, M has left me alone....SCORE!

All of my "issues" have really got me to realize that I really need to start being alone with and seeking God more. I have been pulling away so much and it is just not working out for me. I miss Him and really need a good prayer session with Him.

Well, as a side note, how can I be so down when I have one of these to look at every day :)

Can You Say STRESSED!?!?

For some reason, I am so overly stressed lately.  What do I have to be stressed about?  I have no clue.  Nothing is going bad in my life.  M is still working, I am still working, the kids are better than ever, we are still paying our bills on time.  I have no idea what is going on, but today I feel like running away.  I am so tired and drained, but I haven't even done anything.  I think I need to up my meds or something cause I am goin insane!!! 

Anywho, A's baseball is into their tournament and we lost our first game.  We were on a winning streak there in the beginning and have, for some reason or another, fallen off the truck and just lost every single one of our last three or four games.  If we lose tonight, we are out of it, but I love my team and I think we rock it.  Such adorable little kids.  I really wish I could take every single one of them home.  We do have one parent on our team who has a terrible attitude.  She tells her child, "your team is sucking and you are going to lose!"  Totally sad.  Every time the poor kid is crying, I try to sneak in a few good words because the poor thing doesn't deserve to be put down.  Come on, they are only kids!  *sigh* why do I have such a heart for children who have mean parents.  I just hook onto them and pour the good vibes and words into them like a funnel.  I just hope that something I say really strikes a nerve. 

Church is going okay.  I still feel like something is missing and that we have lost our way.  It just feels like God isn't there.  I haven't heard him speak in a service for so long and it just breaks my heart.  I have been praying so hard that God will hear our prayers and fill us in on where M and I should be right now in our lives because I feel like we are in the wrong place. 

Well, I hear Mr. Baby calling from his crib and I still have a lot of work to do so gotta get!

Love to all and all to love peeps!